Failure

Definition of failure

1a: omission of occurrence or performance specifically: a failing to perform a duty or expected action failure to pay the rent on time

b(1): a state of inability to perform a normal function kidney failure — compare heart failure

(2): an abrupt cessation of normal functioning a power failure – Webster’s Dictionary

These are the top 3 definitions listed for the word FAILURE with examples listed.

Failing is an event we will all experience no matter what color, creed, gender, or size. The feeling of failing is painful. It is heavy with the weight of cultural upbringing, expectation, idealization and so much more.

I myself, have failed quite a few times, in a quite a few ways- big and small. I have failed in the face of other people’s expectations, as well as my own. I have failed after hard work and I have failed after no work.

” To fail is to be a failure. You never worked hard enough. You will always be a failure. “

These were the just some of the words I told myself, and sometimes continue to tell myself when I have failed to accomplish a goal or meet an expectation. Just recently, I began to negatively speak to myself due to not meeting a specific goal. Despite my hard work, fatigue and extreme burnout bested me. I wallowed in my hurt, I shed a lot of tears, I even wondered why I even tried. However, I have made the decision to learn from my failures. Despite, feeling so terribly about my failures I am actively fighting against my negative self-talk and negative thoughts to push through my pain when I fail. Instead of failing backward, I want to fail forward. I want to learn from my failures and embrace them as the lessons and re-directions they are meant to be.

So I leave with this.

If you feel like a failure, remember that failure is just God’s way of redirecting you and/or teaching you to be the best version of yourself that you can be.

Best in Love.